"The Divine Yogini"
© copyright by Michael Ayers <mayers@drs.state.ok.us>, 2000
I would like to share an experience I had
in 1986 when I was 25 years of age.
Im not sure how to classify it,
perhaps a "psuedo-NDE".
It was night and I just finished reading a book titled "The Psychiatrist and the Holyman", a book about Sai Baba. I remember lying there and reflecting on God and Sai Baba when the next thing I remember I was out of my body, very lucid, and being escorted by 1 and possibly 2 guides. I never saw them and I sensed them just behind me to either side. We made a quick journey through the space and I came to a young female seated in a lotus posture. She was surrounded by low connected tables with the open area facing me. I immediately felt tremedous love and acceptance. As if I was in the presence of a divine being of all knowledge. In fact I felt everykind of love I've ever felt at full volumne.There was even a tingle of romantic love (which kind of embarrassed me). On the low tables were many small photographs, perhaps a hundred. I asked her about the pictures and she replied that they were past lives of herself. At this point I realized our communication was telepathic and instantaneous and I became very excited by this fact. She then ask me what did I want to know? I thought I would be brave and I asked her when would I die? The answer came immediately from within myself. (56 years of age). I became very excited because I knew that all knowledge was assessible and immediate in this place/state. I then asked her how I would die and immediately felt a pain in my chest which radiated down my left arm and I knew this ment a heart attack. None of this information was viewed as negative. Next she stood-up and walked over to me and held me. I started crying. I felt like a child. My tears were very cleansing and I continued to feel this overwhelming love from this person. Next, she looked me in the eyes and reached up and gently tapped me at the point of the 3rd eye. I immediately went tumbling in a multicolored ocean of the most extreme bliss I have ever encountered. Lastly I had the impression of being taken back to my body. I immediately
got up and wrote the experience down. On reflection I tried to estimate
the woman's age. She looked about 20 yet seemed ageless. I tried to
determine her nationality and ended deciding she was a mixture of all
nationallities, although her hair was dark and her complection was
light brown. Every time I see a picture of a female yogi or teacher I
look for her, although I've never have seen her. I have wondered if she
represents the Divine Mother. This has been perhaps the most intense
spiritual experience of my life.
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