Index of OBE, Part 2

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Rodney
25 Apr 1999

I told myself this time to not panic when I feel myself being pulled. Again it was on a day when I was tired. The technique seemed this time to come much easier and I soon felt the sucking sensation. This time I allowed everything to run its course. This sensation seemed to only last for a split second before I snapped into an awareness I have never felt before in my life. My entire body was tingling intensely almost like you would feel if you sat on your leg too long, and it sounded as if a swarm of bees was in the room. My heart was beating extremely fast. My breath came rather difficult but was slow, deep, and steady. I layed there experiencing these sensations for I don't know how long. I laid there in this state consciously soaking in all the aspects of it.

I told myself to see if I could lift my arm. When I concentrated on lifting my arm I could feel the arm begin to raise but at the same time it felt as if there were large rubber bands attached to it trying to pull it back down. It also felt as if my skin on my arm had drawn tight and the tingling and humming noise increased somewhat. I tried to lift it further and did so but the pulling increased the further I raised it until I tired and allowed it to drop back to the bed. I rotated my head to actually look at my arm and attempted to raise it again. To my surprise I noticed two images of my arm: one arm rising from the bed and one arm still resting on the bed. I can't remember what made me panic but I believe it was because it seemed like my breathing was growing more difficult. I felt like I was starting to suffocate and so I snapped out of this trance state.

The third attempt proceeded just like the second only this time while in this trance state I experimented a little more trying to gain enough confidence to sit up. I called out (mentally I guess). I found me conversing with myself, asking myself if this was just a lucid dream. In some aspects it was similar to a lucid dream but with much more clarity and control and also with this somewhat painful tingling that I have never experienced in a lucid dream. I lifted one arm then both arms, even wiggled my fingers. I turned my head and examined my bedroom. I guess I expected it to look different; It didn't. Finally I decided to try to sit up. I pulled and pulled and could raise my head and part of the trunk of my body, but as I stated earlier, the further I rose the higher the tension on those "rubber bands" increased and also the faster my heart and breathing seemed. My heart felt as though it would soon jump from my chest. Also my skin felt as if I had a full body facelift it felt so tight. I could sense though that if I just overcame my fear and ignored these sensation that I would pull completely free. But, the intense fear that I would kill myself overcame me again causing me to panic and slam back into my physical body.